I am very restless lately. Either I stare out a window or I spend way too much time at my computer or I'm just kind of pacing. Even Monty is exhibiting signs of SAD--- It's just really starting to get to us at the Bjerk house, this cold, this winter. I remember getting some sort of pamphlet from Bemidji State University during my senior year of high school, some attempt to get me psyched to arrive in the fall. The pamphlet had a run-down of the months - activities, etc., plus a list of "what to expects" as a freshman. Anyway, so, for February...? I distinctly remember the pamphlet mentioning SAD, and depression, then warning that the rate of suicide is highest in this month. I think I shrugged it off at the time, or definitely thought that it couldn't happen to me --- that kind of sadness. I'd never been depressed. I don't think I'm depressed now, in any deep way, but I'm certainly altered. I could try to ride with this strange feeling, though, instead of merely waiting it out. Something positive could come from it, I bet, if I'd just be open to it.