Rituals

Lewis is sleeping and I have a couple of minutes to write, maybe. Maybe more, though he's been sleeping for over three hours so I'm sure he'll wake soon.
The big news: he's sleeping and we're at home. ! I'm getting things done. Most of the time (and today included), he needs a stroller or car ride to put him to sleep during the day and then he'll wake when we get home, so.....the house has been a bigger disaster than usual and I feel So frantic/disorganized.
So because I got to clean up a little this afternoon, I cleaned my desk. In the process I found a Post-It note with these words written: "I love the act of opening the curtains for the day." It was something I jotted down a week or so ago, for a blog entry, but then forgot about because there was no time to write plus the note got buried under a ton of bills/junk mail/pizza coupons. It was good to find it. I do love this morning ritual, though mornings right now are harder than ever because I'm so tired and don't know what the day will bring. Lewis is doing ok at night (though he wakes every 2 1/2 - 3 hours), but the days can be rough. He gets overly tired but won't sleep, and Adam's working from home and starts to feel that he needs to help when I let Lewis cry for two minutes while I get some underwear on (forget trying to look good ---- getting dressed is the goal. A shower is nice if it can happen.) Anyway --- we're laughing about things when we remember to !

I've been thinking about rituals since I want to get some for Lewis --- bedtime rituals, a daytime schedule. It's still too early, really, for me to expect him to nap at a certain time, but it doesn't hurt to be trying. I also want to get back to some of the rituals I had ---- my morning readings, a bath a few times a week with candles and music. I think it's important to have these things, just as it's important to be able to let them go and be flexible when you need to. ---

Ok. Lewis is still sleeping and I need to find a hotel room for May 8. It's my 30th birthday and Adam and I will be in the Cities for a Simon and Garfunkle concert. It's the perfect way to celebrate, and I can't wait. I'm nervous, of course, since it will be the first night away from Lewis and he still won't really take a bottle, but...I have faith that everything will work out. It usually does, somehow.