That's the name of our Rock Band II band, Adam's and mine. Yes, it's been awhile since we've unearthed Rock Band, but these days.....? DISTRACTION is the thing. "The Overwhelming Conclusion" is one of the names the computer came up with, and we agreed it was the right one.
I am teetering between very cranky and serene. The picture in my head is of my teeter totter (I'm just now certain I've never in my life actually written that word) when I was little, the one my brother and I would play on until it rotted or something and had to be removed. Anyway, it's two versions of myself on the thing, and my partner (the "good" Me, the serene and calm and optimistic and ever-grateful because why shouldn't I be? one) hops off unexpectedly - probably to go to the bathroom - and sends the other Me crashing to the ground with a thud, the Me that cries randomly now (and I just don't cry much) and is a binge eater and a complainer (my pelvic bones/joints/whatever really ARE keeping me from walking normally at all:), a restless wanderer and a Screamer at my Naughty Dog and basically someone I fear will be a horrible mother. So I cry and begin the cycle again.
But not all the time. I am also noticing beautiful things (like these daffodils) and surrounding myself with them, and taking walks when my groin doesn't lock up, and eating some good things (like spinach salad and oranges), playing Rock Band and reading (The God of Small Things.......and trashy gossip magazines), belly dancing and crazy hip-hop dancing (Elvis, Black Eyed Peas, Martin Sexton), taking baths with a ton of candles around me, and being so thankful for all of the family and friends who care about me and Adam and our baby. Thank you to everyone who is thinking of us right now, and praying or sending positive vibes or just checking in. I appreciate it a lot.
It's a strange place to be in, this "limbo". I have another doctor's appointment tomorrow and have been struggling with whether or not to make the decision, at this point, to be induced. I will be done with 41 weeks on Wednesday, and everything looks ok so I don't have to induce yet. I certainly don't want to, but I don't know how much more of this waiting I can take - especially when it could start to negatively affect my baby. It's funny how everything you read and hear during pregnancy, everyone you talk to, tries to prepare you for the fact that things might not go just as you plan or hope. I pretty much disregarded it all because I was sure it would. ! But now....maybe not. I am just reminding myself of the end result and how of course that's all that matters. I just don't want to do anything to put our baby at risk, and I feel like I'm approaching this crucial point........do nothing and the baby could be less healthy for being post-mature, or induce and start crazy, unnatural contractions that could put the baby in distress and possibly set me up for a lot more pain than necessary and/or a c-section. I don't know.
Any advice from those of you out there who have been through this? Thank you!
By the way, we got a new recliner the other day ---- very comfy! (see above pic with Monty looking goofy---). So then I had to get a light with some shelves (it was my Task of the Day on Friday), so now it is a perfect reading spot. And feeding the baby spot, I imagine.
This is long but I'll leave it, and I'll quit being annoyed that the page suddenly won't let me leave spaces where I want to leave spaces. (uh-oh....teeter totter's crashing down... :)
Good luck with the start of the week, everyone - .
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Well, I am certainly grateful for an update. I keep wondering and wondering what is taking place, but I see not much baby action! Soon it will be my sister's due date as well! Maybe you two will go on the same day. I don't know that I have much advice. I went for the actupuncture, but I am not sure if I would do it again. I would maybe wait. But waiting is hard! The crying must be a sign of a hormone surge, and hopefully that will mean baby comes soon! Remember to ask about the patch, and hopefully that will make the crying hormones in check! Good luck with everything. We are all routing/rooting for you! If you are trying to keep distracted or busy, feel free to blog and keep us updated. P.s. What things do you still need??
Still waiting, huh Laura? I'm so sorry. I know it gets frustrating. For my two cents, I would induce if you're still pregnant at 41 weeks. The risks just get too high at that point (in my opinion). Good luck with whatever happens. And I pray that labor starts naturally on it's own!
Hang in there! Don't feel crazy for being emotional--it's completely normal. I cried like a baby the morning we had Marin, and I couldn't even exactly explain why... just a rush of emotion that I hadn't taken/had time to think through or deal with I guess.
I've never experienced labor. Both of my kiddos were scheduled c-sections a week before my due date because they were so large and risked a complicated delivery if I had attempted it. I was terrified with my first c-section, but it went alright. Recovery is not pleasant, but sometimes babies just need help coming into the world!
My sister was induced at 41 weeks with both of her girls. In both cases, she had a positive experience, but I'm speaking second-hand, and every pregnancy/labor/delivery is different.
In any case, whatever you decide, you will be holding your baby soon. Trust your mommy instincts, ask a lot of questions at your appointment, and know that it's all worth it in the end.
We're waiting anxiously with you, and we can't wait to hear your happy news.
Love to you,
Melissa, Josh, Evan, and Marin
You will have the baby soon, no matter what. I hope that if you are induced, it is for medical reasons, not because you are tired of waiting or because the doctor is planning to go out of town or something.
Hi Laur!
I'm at work so won't write much! I just want to tell you hard we are all praying for you & Adam & your little one! Just for the record, I was induced with Danny & it went fine-it was almost better to have it all planned & all of the nurses right there being "in control" & on top of the whole situation, rather than the panic & uncertainty of going into labor in the middle of the night like iI did with Kelly! At any rate, your baby boy will be here by tom'w night, and as you said, all of this will wash right out of your mind & you will be holdiung that little bundle of joy in your arms!-all that matters is the end result!! It is such a miracle! Lots & Lots of prayers for you all!!!! love you Laur! Ter
Thank you for an update. I have also been checking everyday! I was induced with Jackson at 40 weeks. He was pretty big so they decided not to keep waiting. Mine went really well. I've come to the conclusion that it's not worth thinking that the birth will go like you planned it. And if it doesn't it still works out just fine.
You're almost there and pretty soon all these aches and pain you are having will be long gone. We are all wishing you well and hoping for a healthy baby boy!
Holly
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