*I've written a lot in the last couple of months about Finding Water. A couple of times I've explained, but if anyone's still not sure what it is, check out my link to it under "Creative Projects" on the right.
One thing I have done well throughout this journey is my reading. I read every chapter carefully. The rest, though----this week and last have been hard for me. Does anyone else feel they are coming to some kind of "brink" with Finding Water? I DID do Morning Pages this morning, and I spent some time considering why I slog through them lately, if I even do them at all. It is true that I have to get up very early in the morning, and so sometimes I turn the Morning Pages into "Evening" ones, but still I am not excited about them. Could it be that the work in this book has required all of us to look so deeply at ourselves that we are starting to get tired? I am curious as to whether anyone else feels this way.--- I have had to reflect on my positive qualities, on things I love about life, about things I need to work on.... I've had to make lists upon lists - something I love to do - but once again (and in a harsher light this time) I am forced to admit that I do not follow through with many of the things I say I will do. There's just been so much "coming to terms with" and honesty as I've gone through this book. I know this is a good thing, but I feel myself at a deciding point: Here, at Week Eight, I will either quit or I will see it through to the end. I have never considered quitting, although is my laziness about certain aspects of this book the same as quitting? I don't know. Maybe. But I will re-commit myself now, promise to try harder with the walks, the dates, the writing, the divining rods, in order to gain as much as possible from this experience. I will commit to visiting at least ten other Finding Water blogs a week until the end, so I can finish "meeting" all of you.
If anyone else is feeling like I am as we close out this week, I wish you luck! Happy Easter/Spring.
Saturday, April 7, 2007
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hang in there! i often have trouble seeing things through as well, so i know what you mean about trying to figure out why. i feel like somewhere around this time is a breaking point for a lot of people. but you've made it this far, so i hope you can find the oomph to re-commit to the process and see it through.
*wishing you luck, a happy easter, and a great weekend!*
I am not as far along in FW as you are but I feel the same. I find myself slogging through the MP and wondering when some insights will arise. Yet I have had insights.
As I write this comment, I realise that I compare the FW journey to my AW journey of 10 years or so ago. Yet I have to acknowledge that my life is 180 degrees from then - so I suppose that the MP and other exercises will have a different effect/impact than before.
i think its a normal part of the process, hang in there ...
happy easter : )
Hi, Laura,
I'm in the "hang in there" camp. Maybe you could let yourself do what parts of the process you felt comfortable with on any given day---say on one day you wanted to do your morning pages, another you wanted to walk, or maybe you'd want to have 3 Artist Dates in a row. It sounds like it may feel overwhelming or like too much to do. If you gave yourself permission to participate at whatever level felt right to you, instead of having "should's" maybe you could turn the whole thing around!
Peace and blessings,
Olivia
yes. i admit. i was feeling the same. but being one of the "hosts" of finding water, quitting has not been an option for me. mostly, i was starting to feel bogged down my cameron's depression. but i also felt like my morning pages haven't been going anywhere. but then last night i read through everything that i wrote this past week. according to cameron, we're not supposed to reread our journal pages until later in the 12 weeks. holy taleedo! there is so much more going on in my morning pages than i realized!
i guess what i'm saying is that i hope you hang in there. i've decided to give myself a fresh start as well. i think there is more happening than we realize...it's under the surface of everything that we do. do you feel it?
i love ya and have been thinking of you often. good luck with finding water--whatever you decide to do!
j.
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